he say

he told me this last week:

ABC : i felt very fortunate to get to know you and no matter what happens, i will always be there for you....what can i do, when someone just appear in your life and swept u off your feet...

sigh...really makes me fly...

Love

Hi No One,

I am having an affair....i am love him very very much... really sei lor..what do it do?

Best Regard,
Grown up Man turning into a 'mui mui'

Mr Sexy from HK (part 1)

just gonna write something short here because i think i need to get it out of me..... See, when you cheat on your bf...basically you have no one to go to, or no one to share stories with especially when all your friend is also his friends....i cant tell them how great the fuck is, i cant tell them how much i miss him(just the fucks, OK) ....so, i just want to say here in this blog....

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Mr SS from HK, i miss you! You have a sexy european accent, great body, cute build, nice cock, 30something looks, masculine and what i miss the most is you literally ATE me...Sat and Sun nite is Not enough! Too bad u flew back today
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OK, now i can sleep and focus on my work!

HOT Interview candidate

i just got out from an interview session ....this position will be reporting to me. I was late for the interview due to some other work commitment and i let the gm start the interview first....after 10 mins, i entered the room ...there he is, gorgoeusness . He swept me off my feet at first sight.

i browsed his resumes and details and found out that he is 50% thai. him mum is thai and he speak thai. And his looks, just that those thai boys i would like to fuck in bangkok.....oh damn, i was so distracted throught the interview.....

normally, i am serious and i love to ask hard question and probe until they reached a deadend....turns out to be ...my 'hardest' question to him is ...tell me about yourself -_- .... i have to admit i am being unprofessional but seriously, he is so damn cute....and he has a sunshine smile and his voice is deep and sexy....

I am not able to focus on the interview for the first 5 mins because i kept looking for signs if he is gay or not, whether is he interested in me or not (ya, i know thats FUCKING DUMB) ...After 5 mins of warmup, i finally composed myself and looked at him and talk.

when i asked about his hobbies, he mentioned, futsal, football, snooker and then i knew he is straight.....

ya...despite his good looks, he is also capable and is someone i can actually mould to take over my position in case i got promoted or left the company.....smart, friendly, humble, great education.... i want to get him in.....

i need an eyecandy in this office as all the male collegues are hopeless married uncles with big bellies and thick specs and uncombed hair....zzzzzzz

old fart

i hate my boss. he is old, coward, slow and just talk too much..seriously....we were in the management meeting, where he is presenting his project to the GM. this project is already a screw up in the beginning and i was only involved because he seeks for my advise on certain things...CERTAIN THINGS like 5% only.....when he is presenting to the GM, he actually have the guts to use my name and quoted me wrongly....the project is already screw up, and to reduce the mess, i am assisting him...

in the presentation he mentioned " myself (boss) and xx(me) have discuss on this project thoroughly and this is the only solution WE have " ....he actually used the word WE. fuck him, i guess he do not want to be screw alone by the bosses.

then when the GM was upset , he said " BOTH of u did a bad job, u guys are idiots " ...that was it, i was so fucking MAD i could just punch my boss in the face

and then, that fucking old fart looked at me (as if i am the one doing the project) and said " XX(me) , i will discuss with you again how to do this...do it correctly next time" -->$%!#$#%^#$^#$#!$!##%@#% to you !!! fuck fuck you!

my boss is now in another meeting now....i am fucking gonna confront him and get him to explain the bullshit that just happen

Blue Friday

I felt very bad on what happened yesterday.....JP is wonderful....he bought supper for me as i LOVE to eat, the past few weeks, he bought me 2 D&G Ts, 1 tiger onizuka shoe, and lots and lots of suppers..which explained my 1kg weight gain...

I was in my room with JP doing our own things with our computer...and i was actually having a friendly msn chat with a sexy friend, xx, nothing flirtatious. I am just asking him hows his vacation, when is the next time he is coming to KL, etc.....and then suddenly he blurted out "i miss you, do you miss me?? " ....i replied "yes, i miss you" , purely recripocating...but i dont miss him actually.....

AND THEN....he replied "you miss me or miss the sex??"...as soon as the statement appeared on my msn window, JP walks towards me and i have to quickly minimize the window and too bad he is suspecting something amiss.....he asked me to show him the chat session...i refuse, saying its a friend's secret....i cant share with him...he insist but i insist harder...in the end, he didnt get to see it and he went into giving the silent treatment throughout the nite.....and also this morning....

ya ya...i am a slut....whatever. Its good to remain anonymous, its not something that i would like to share with friends/family......

An Evening with AL

nothing much has been happening to me recently.....its just work work work...and work work puke....then gym, then sleep......

probably the highlight of the week is just an evening with a hongkee friend, met in fridae...lets call him AL...AL works in singapore, thus last weekend, they have a long weekend (Sg national day) .. yeah...while the singaporean are busy partying till monday, we malaysian have to drag our feet to work on monday morning.

i was quite excited to meet up with AL because his profile picture looks interesting. He wears a thick frame glass,with smooth and fair skin. Overall, he looks like chinese superman...nice, nerdy looking. I love those looks.

I smsed him on sunday nite for drinks, and then 'drinks' after that. I asked him where he wanted me to treat him...of all places, he decided Haagen Daaz....damn, felt like such a waste of money paying rm42 for just 2 cups of ice cream.... AL does look like his picture in Fridae, but i wasnt turned on by the actual person.....i wonder why....thus, i decided not to have 'drinks' after that....

after haagen daaz, he asked me if i wanted to grab some beer and head to his room....:) , i know where this is heading too...i agreed as my bf, JP dumped me that nite for Karaoke with his friends.....i have mixed feeling while walking towards his hotel...to do or not to do...should i back out while i still can???? and then i just tell myself "fuck it...whatever happens happens...if i can get it up with him, why not ? ...i have not have sex for like 3 weeks...."

we reach the hotel room, open up the beer...chit chat, gossiping, and he is such a good company...he can really talk and joke....but i wasn feeling the chemistry....after like 30 mins talking...i got lazy and sleepy....i informed him i am leaving soon..he came closer and started touching my cheeks, my thigh....i wasnt responsive...as i am getting up from the bed, he kiss my cheek and i smiled and said "thanks for the goodbye kiss" ....i got up, he stood and pulled my head towards him and he kissed me....i wasnt responsive too :p....just wasnt turned on and feeling lazy....he felt my resistance and he just smiled and opened the door for me....we bye-ed.

On my way home , i got this sms from AL

" i thought i would have something intimate with you but i felt like you dont want it, thanks for the night"

i replied (pretending)
"I wasnt expecting that ...i am shocked...anyways, i had a great time chatting with you"

he replied
"i thought you were expecting it. I felt sad that you dont like me. I thought you should"

i really think i am getting old. Work seems to have eliminate all my sexual drive....it seems like i am more interested with my 2 sex buddy who have been loyal to me throughout these years....my left hand and right hand....

this fella is annoying

ppl just dont get it when u dont reply them......besides what is wrong with the hahas and the hehes???retard??? he is going to be a problem once my perks expired one in week...there goes my precious maibox

msg1:
hi...what is your plan for this weekend? haha nice to meet u again ,yah, hee heee, have a nice day..haha...can i have your number?haaha....oh yah im xxxxx hee hee

my only reply :
hi.....i am fine thanks.....i just came back from marketplace.....u can call me vvvv

his msg no 2:
wow....this weekend i realy busy until now juz open fridae...hahahaau come back from mkplc....haah......y dun ask me go together......he heeee.....what is your num yah?can i have it....we clubs together nextime how?haha...have a nice new week...hahaah

msg no 3:
hi...cam i have your number?ahha.....can i be yoru fren....hahaa...im xxxx..nice to meet u ya....hahaha

msg no 4:
hey hey....u still havent give me your number rite?ahahaa.....can i have it???have a nice weekend ya.....hahaha

its fridae

its Friday and 1 more hr to go before 545pm.....i have been working and thinking about work since i opened my eyes this morning.....by about 2 hrs ago...my mind already start to wander..which is why i decided to blog

kept thinking about my kk trip (meeting dr sexy, i drooled thinking about our last session in march). I cant wait to go to KK. Day time i am the head of operations in my company and by night, i am a total slut...muahahaha....

i have been fridaeing since 2 hrs ago....browsing profiles, deleted some email from people without pictures....These people just doesnt have common sense...if u got no picture and u sent me an email like "wanna fuck? i am 26 178 70, top" ...u are just wasting ur time...and worst still...WASTING MY INBOX SPACE..i am not a perk member ok..my emails are reserved for precious males :p

i will be in bintulu as well and after i browsed those profiles in bintulu, i concluded that all bintulu twink has left the town for a better fuck in other cities....:p...
all i found left in bintulu are salted fish and lards.

anyways, its fun to diss ppl like this haha...anyways, to those who knows this fattybumbum also know i am not like this in real life....those are just the naughty voices in my head

i just wish this trip will be more 'memorable' than my last trip in march....

Faint in the shower room

Yes....my most embarressing moment to date.....till now, i am not sure why i fainted .....i spend time thinking about it and came to these 3 possibility......i cant get it out of my head, especially when i imagining myself lying down naked .,..gross~~~

i woke up at 11am and had my leftover fried meehoon from dinner the nite before..after that, i had 2 oranges at 230pm before heading for the gym. And before i work out, i down 1 scoop of whey protein....then i work out my breast . leg and tricep for 1hr....it could be that i burned more than i ate

after workout,i felt so slim and fit, so i decided to parade myself in the sauna :p ....there was this fat guy in the sauna . He kept adding water to the stone, which means the sauna will keep getting hot. It became so damn hot.

Meanwhile, while the room is already hot, came in another cute guy in his 30s, which makes the room even hotter. Ok..this is first for me...being cruised in the sauna. I never believe in all the stories i heard, until i really experienced it myself..i mean who is so Tak Malu staring at another person crotch and face. and he is cute and he can get good quality guys anytime,dont need to downgrade himself. Anyways, since he is staring at me and i liked him, i endured the heat in the steamroom and sat there for another 15 mins expecting others to leave so that we can have our mini 'flirt' . after 5 mins, there is only 2 of us left. He came closer to me and start touching my feet, i got hardon . By that time, my heart is racing like crazy.

He was so nervous and i think its cute..and before he moved up to my thigh, someone came in and he quickly took his hand away. (that someone is later the only person who witness me faint naked) . That cutie gave me a sign and walk out to the shower. I am excited and i planned to join him.

He left the sauna and about 10 secs later,i went out. Once i stepped out to a cooler place, everything seems to blur and i felt dizzy. I saw him at the end shower room waiting but i decided not to join because its getting worse. So, i thougt maybe i need some water to cool down. I stepped into the shower. As soon as the shower hit me, everything turns blue and red and my head is spinning. Next thing i know, i saw that someone asking me, "are you ok?" . I rise, took my towel, wrap it around my body, thanked him for his concern and storm out, feeling embaress. He saw me naked, i wonder how bad it look like. I saw the cute guy after dressed up but i couldnt be bother to ask for his number :( . Hope to meet him again in the gym.

So, the 3 possible reason is
1) low blood sugar
2) from damn hot sauna to a cold shower
3) my heart raced when he move his hand toward my thigh . its too much for my heart to take for this sauna fantasies come true.

I would like to thank the witness on his concern..if u happen to read this, thanks again and do say hi to me because i have forgotten ur face ..sorry, i was blur yesterday

For the cute guy, i may have forgotten ur face too, but i somehow remember his big nose and cute baby fat ...do say hi to me and if u ask for my number, u r qualified :)

New Year Resolution-Revisit -_-

Here is the resolution i made 5 months ago...on Dec 15, when sales department are buzy holidaying (which means my operation department get to do less), hence i am free....even i did not make a final version out of the draft...i would like to do a mid year review on how i did so far..

1)75kg by March 09 : failed miserably...weighs 82kg now.only lost 3kg

2) Brush my teeth at night before going to bed - failed...ido it only when i had supper

.3) Apply some skin product every night : Not bad. About 4 times per week at night ....and in my car while quieng up in traffic lights, every morning to work

4) Wake up at 7am in the morning on working days and leave my house by 730am : Never unless i go to gym in the morning where i leave at 630am

5) Cut down spending: I am usully broke 1 week b4 salary in

6) Read more books: Ya....is reading only the first chapter in 4 books count?I get bored with books

7) Organize my workplace : Thanks to the new tealady....she eases my burden

8) Clean my messy room on weekends : Ya, on weekend once a month

9) More masturbation , less sex : This masturbation one is easy....however, hot guy's offers normally makes this so hard for me

10) with reference to point no 9 , maybe i should spice things up. maybe try some SM, use some tools, orgy, more 3 somes, maybe i should even play bottom (sucks) : erm...is 5 hrs of cuddling, kissing and oral counted(2 nites in a row)????

11) avoid procrastination: better

12) make more friends in the gym, i mean real friends: ya...i met few great friends and 1 sucky one

13) Xue Hua Yu (learn mandarin) iMproved

14) OK...this might be the hardest, but by 1st Jan 2009 , i will forgive and forget, all my family/friends/backstabbers for all our misunderstanding : I forgave all before 2009...but coming 2009...happened to bump into 1 sucky friend