monday blues

it is really FUCKING COLD in the office now.....FUCKING FUCKING COLD..y do the admin ppl decided that the aircond need servicing. Without the servicing, its like i am living in the artic.....now its serviced! sometimes i find these admin annoying in the way i am annoyed with those certain ppl who decided yoga is illegal for muslim practitioner.
business is damn slow these days but i seemed to be busier than ever. Bad economy means business is bad means to avoid the possibilities of retrenchment, you need to up your game....
work is getting less fun, it is me or is it the company??..i keep asking myself that. This company is my 3rd company in my 4 years of working. Its like 1 company per year....and my first managerial position. Sometimes i just think i am good in giving first impressions(during interviews, meet ppl for the first time) ...when it comes to deliver, i kinda give up easily. Managing ppl is not the easiest thing to do...especially managing a bunch of unambitious aunties. No one care to bother, no one care to deliver or impress their boss. Its like they already decided their fate and work just enough to support their expenses. Again, i would ask myself...its the managers fault that he failed to motivate them or its the company's fault to hire these ppl.
then come to the meeting part, where all departments will start bombarding each others and i have to defend my own. I do not have a luxury to lead a team of well spoken, ambitious degree holder. instead what i get is aunties who are only interested to talk about diapers brand, cheapest hypermarket for groceries (even that could come out) . Of coz i blame myself for not having the interest to talk diapers brand.
Take note however, i am not weak. I just refuse to do something that i dont like. like faking to be interested in someone, faking to talk about tesco vs carrefour (aunties topic, even that can come out)
Today, just like every other Monday, i felt like quitting my post. The paycheck doesnt seem that attractive anymore.....maybe i should go for a holiday.
And i hate my boss (who doesnt hate their boss?)