Busy Lazy

I have been busy for the past few days, with my gyms, work, and mostly domestic travelling. By the time i got home, i watched few episode of Friends (this is my 3rd time watching friends from season 1, i just find the too funny and i kept laughing ) . Went to bed at 11pm everynight. On top of that, my stupid comp kept restarting and i cant wait to get a new one by next week.
I spend the whole morning since 8am reading about Anwar's sodomy case. In my opinion, it was a total fabrication. Politics is dirty and corrupted. People will just do anything. Its like 'eat or being eaten'. At least, i believe malaysian's politics is evolving. No more domination from a single political party and the opposition has done a very good job putting up a fight and educating the public. Wont comment much (although i can write a whole thesis about this) here, might get myself into trouble here.

I had a great weekend. Will post about it later. (JP is sleeping and complaining about the typing noise so i have to stop now.)

HIV-breast suck

I was doing some readings on the internet about the possibility of contracting the HIV virus thru blowjob, kissing , rimming. I mean i dont use protection when it comes to cock sucking because you would want to taste the cock rather than tasting latex. and came across this from yahoo answer. I just find the way he express it amusing. Btw, based on my research, the possibility is almost zero
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Dear dr,

i had a protected sex with a commercial sex worker in dubai last month. The condom I used was latex-made condom. I heard from a friend of mine that a woman when she get aroused (during a sex), a colorless fluid comes out of her breasts. As you know that infected mother could transfer hiv virus to her baby when milking her baby. I have sucked that commercial sex workers breast; does that mean that I have been infected with aids?
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Bear???????????????

After my weekend in penang, i dare not step up the scale, fearing i will see a huge increase for my weight. In penang, my stomach is always full, once there are any empty space i will fill it up with food. I even finished a whole bar of chocolate (the big one) for the weekend. I ate like 10 bak chang. IN short, i feed like a pig. My pants are tighter so i am sure there is increase.To make up for all the weight gain, I went to gym yesterday in midvalley for bodypump, steps and some weight training. I went the with my lowest self confidence. In the bodypump class, i was standing in front of a bald uncle. He looked a bit masculine but certainly not my cup of tea. From the moment i stepped in, i noticed those pair of eyes staring at me. I doubt it at first but as the class progress, i his stares just get obvious. I am facing the mirror so i can see from the mirror that he is looking at me during the squats. It made me lose my concentration and gave up at the bottomhalf. I do not response to his stares because that would lead him to talk to me and i am not in the mood (and body) for any hookups. Thats always the case if you response to those type of stares. When the class end, he come to me and asked me "Are you new to cali midvalley" ,"never seen you here before" . I response by telling him , i originally from fitness first and i usually go to cali in standard chart bldg. We chatted a while while waiting for the step class to start. Thank god finally nic came in and i tell him i have to go. I am stump at his next line. He smile and said
"You are a really cute bear, you know" "you want to go out for a drink later?"

Wait uncle, didnt anything in my face spell out GAY???? What if i am straight?? i will just land a punch on your face. Am i suppose to take that as compliment???!!!!! Bear????????????? I am so not into the 'bear' type and this uncle go and tell me i am a cute bear. I am so insulted. I just gained weight over the weekend and feeling a little depressed, here you go calling me a bear. I told him i have plans and just said "maybe somewhere next week" . I said a quick bye and ran into the step class. He watched a while from outside and then dissapear.
I am going for yoga and fly wheel tonite. Hope not the meet this uncle again.

Crazy thoughts

Friday and Saturday is always the best days in a week. On Friday, all i can do is to do the hourly countdown until 530pm and then its fun fun fun until sunday morning. And the countdown for Monday started. The day has been great so far. Had pan mee for lunch. The highlight until right now at 1220pm is that i bump into a very very cute guy in the lift. I am working in level 12 and he get down on level 11. All i can think of from the G floor to 11th floor is how can i get a taste of this candy. I just let my mind wonder and these are the silly thoughts i had while in the lift.
1) i wish i can turn him into a bubblegum and then put him in my mouth, suck and chew until its tasteless
2) turn into a lice and crawl up his dick (fuck, its so downgrading)
3) turn into angelina jolie and seduce him....
Its crazy, but i have not been having sex for a week. I guess my dick must have been boring and sending me a signal.

Penang

Yes! I am going back to penang tonight. Mum's cooking is waiting for me tonight. Its hard to stay focus and discipline on my weight loss plan (do i have a plan??) at home in PENANG!!!. I will be taking the 9pm bus tonight and will be reaching pg at about 2am tomorrow. JP as usual trying to win my mum's heart bought her some hair accesories from Evita Peroni. Its shocking something that small can cost rm200. gonna get some free facial and face massage from my mum (she is a beautician).My plan for Saturday will be1)wake up as late as possible2) visit my late father, put some flower for father's day3) Down these as much as possible :Laksa, char koey teow, mums cooking, steamboat, duck egg char koey teow, rojak,cendol, duck rice 4) induce myself to vomit all items in no 2 :p 5) shoppings (gonna have a wardrobe makeover- gonna get something gay-er :p, maybe some colorful stripes tight singlet and that ugly bags that those daisies always carry )6)facials7)sleep
On my way back on sunday, i am gonna stop by probably in ipoh for the nga choy kai or in kampar for the min pau kai. Most probably i am gonna gain 2kg from this trip

Damn, i missed it

A very interesting news today.
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Kiosk owner unamused by fuel giveaway

KAPAR: When a petrol kiosk owner stepped out to run some errands, his newly hired pump attendant started giving out free petrol.
The owner was alerted about an unusually long line of cars at his kiosk, and he rushed back to discover he had lost about RM3,000 worth of petrol.
According to another kiosk worker, the man in his 30s had asked for a job and was employed at RM12 per day. “Yesterday was his third day. Being confident he could do the job, the owner left to pay some bills. Within the hour-and-a-half the owner was away, the man gave out free petrol,” the other worker said.
Word of the free petrol spread and people took the opportunity to fill up their tanks.
The man ran off when he saw his employer return. It was later found out that he was mentally unsound.
No police report was lodged.

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Confrontation

Everyone has an child inside them. Today, mine chooses to take action subconciously at a certainly wrong time. seriously today i am shock to see how defensive i am if i am challenge. I know that in an ideal situation, i must remain calm, take a deep breath, listen to the opinion and then react in a professional manner. I totally embaress myself today. Fuck! I am new in this company and as a manager, i am entrusted with a lot of things...one of it of coz is the entertainment. From what i observed, management seems to 'pamper' me and have a good perception on me. This at the same time, raises some eyebrows and also i can see my colleagues talking to me less and less. I cant blame them as my automatic reaction due to the pamper is to be a lil bit cocky. Which bring me to the situation in the meeting today. I was presenting my studies on a project and halfway through it, a junior executive (3 years in the company) raises his hand and start bombarding me with question. It is so negative rather than constructive to a point where i got very annoyed. My face turned red and i automatically raises my voice. I notice everyone is getting uncomfortable so i pretended to smile and laugh and said "OK, point taken" . Fucking embaressing moment so far in this new company and certainly not doing me any good, because i will now be labelled as emotional, cocky and mr know it all. I gotta do some damage control, however i am not letting this junior executive to get away with all his "we cant this and we cant that" .
OK, moments over.

Personality Test

I find this test interesting as this is the first one that tells me how gay i am...I scored 76 for femininity and 40 for masculinity. Damn, i am so not creative from due to my low imaginative and aesthetic figure . Lowconfidence. I kind of agree on the confidence thing because the confidence that i project to people are usually fake. I have high score for agency...dont know what the hell is it.

Gym tracks

I have just downloaded the Pussycat dolls-Button (remix by Dave Aude). It is the best remix so far on Buttons. I get to know this song from Arjiette's step in Cali on Thursday. Its highly energetic. I am not a techno/disco/'whatever genre you call it' song listener. But eversince i joined the gym 3 years back, i started putting those songs in my ipod and that is what boost me up everyday.

Here are some of my fave tracks :
1) I go crazy (techno) - DHT - Bodypump
2) Rise - Safri Duo
3) Destination Unknown- Alex gaudino - gym area
4) Buttons (Dave Aude remix) - Pussycat Dolls - Arjiette's steps
5) Biology (remix) - Girls aloud - Arjiette
6) Unfaithful (Tony Moran mix) - Piranna .ops..its Rihanna - Nicholas step
7) Do i make you proud (remix) - Taylor Hicks- Nor's step
8) Pray- Tina Cousin - Nic's
9) Sorry - Madonna - Nor's ,Arjiette

Nor has a lot of great energetic tracks but i do not know the title.

Boobies hangover

Yes i am back to my lovely country,yesterday. I still hate the government. Down 2 packet of nasi lemak this morning...been craving for it since yesterday night.
Overall, i cant deal with boobs anymore.I am still recovering from boob hangover. For the meantime, i shall stop buying char siew pau for breakfast, instead i will opt for sausage roll and half boiled eggs. I mean the whole trip wasnt about boobs but my counterpart thinking i am straight, wanted to make me happy, so he assumed my ideal entertainment involved having ass rubbing at my crotch and boobs on my face. But seriously, if i am straight, this will be one of the most wonderful business trip i have ever been.
I have been faking it since i am young and only came out to my family and close friends about 2 years ago. I used to fake it so well that my friends started to call me pimp. I lose some of the touch after JP and AT came into my life, my bf and my used to be close gay friend. I am glad that during this trip, i have sharpen back my pimping skill. 4 of us (myself, my collegue, mr tom and mr yam) entered the high class bar, sounds something like Sukhumwit Legs and is ushered into the private lounge. We chatted for 5 minutes and then 8 chicks with swimsuit came it. The mamasan with bad teeth came and sit on my lap, peck me on my forehead and said to me " You like my babies? " "They very sad, buy them drinks and they happy" . She has just placed a krytonite right on my face. To get rid of her from my lap and get the attentions of me, i pulled the most innocent looking chick and get her to sit next to me. I look at the mamasan with my fake happy smile and said " I buy her drinks" . Mamasan proceed to other colleagues.
The reason i picked the innocent looking chick is to protect her from others as i wont be groping her here and there, but i am so wrong. She is a slut! She went on to lick my ears and neck. and wanted to french kiss me. Sensing the danger, i pinched her ass and smile. She shouted and all of them laughed. We started karaoke and i asked her to sit next to me. I did not entertain her at all despite all her moves so she exited the room after a short while, to look for other business i guess. My colleague, EW, a fresh grad at 24 had the best time of his life, i can tell from his face.
I am getting tired of all these. I am not sure how long i can take all these. I am schedule to go to shanghai somewhere next month. I doubt it will be a boobie trip. I hope to have Julian show me around in Shanghai and i will 'reward' him accordingly ..hehe
My boss just walk pass me cubicle and he farted. What the hell!

Bangcock- i wish

Just came back from a so-so breakfast. Staying in Grand Hyatt, i thought the breakfast can be at least good but it is quite dissapointing. First thing in the morning, down a can of V8 juice , which actually taste like the sauce in the sardine can. Read it somewhere where they said it can help recovering from hangover. Went to the bed supper club yesterday with Mr Tom Yam (thai counterpart) . Nice design , nice music , nice crowd.....then proceed to another smaller club...cant recall the name as the alcohol in the first is limiting my brain functions. All i can remember in the smaller club is boobs,ass and laughter. I remembered having a thai babe with weird english sitting on my lap (crotch area to be exact), rubbing her ass against my crotch, asking me to buy her drinks and see whether i want to bring her home or not. It seems like i am getting better in handling the entertainment the straight way. After all that, was initially plan to strip naked to my gay self and head to dj station but just too tired. I went back to my room alone at 2am.
Will have all the time on my own today until dinnertime later.

Shake Ya Body~~

One more post before i head to the airport. I been noticing this about myself every morning on my way to work. I actually sing in the car! Knowing i have a bad voice and at the same time, i am shy, i been singing and moving to the music on my way to work every morning. I dont care anymore what other drivers think of me when they see this crazy fella dancing and singing in the seat. Is it a sign that my inner bitch is really surfacing after i start working here (lots of entertainment involved) ?? Hmmmm

Julian

I am really suprised to get Julian's call this morning, his english is so cute, and he called me Sir :p. Usually i speak directly with his boss, Mr Chinaman but he is in a meeting and he need some urgent details. JP and i had sex yesterday at about 1130pm (should have just wait for tonight), my usual sleeping time during weekdays. It was quite intense we finished about 1am. After cleaning up, this and that, i go to bed at130am. I am feeling really sleepy now. I just felt energize from the whole conversation with Julian this morning.After confirming some official details for his boss, he proceed to ask me when i will be going to China. The catch is, he even ask me some personal question like "Am i married", or do i have a gf , who do i stay with. I in turn asking him back the same question, even offering him to stay with me during my 3 days trip to china. He just said "Sure" , without any hesistation :D . I guesses we kinda sense each other during the other night when he is in kl with his boss. Halfway thru the conversation only i realize i am getting so excited and i speak so loudly that my colleague is listening and looked at me. I hope they do not know that the person on the other line is Julian because that would raise so gossips in the office. Anyway, i am certainly looking forward for my trip to china and hope to try out China 'cuisine' . Will be flying to BKK later. Cant wait!

Bangkok

I will be heading to BKK for business trip this Friday. Hope to fully utilise my time there to discover more ga hangout places. I been there twice so far, once with my straight friends which is purely waste of time (all i can remember boobies and booze) and another one with my AT, JP and RN(my fag hag, i miss her dearly!) .Lots of memories there during my 2nd time. We went there last year during Songkran and it was crazy. BKK is literally gay central. I am suprised to see lots of malaysian and singaporeans there. Lots of familiar faces; strangers i met gym, strangers i met clubs, ex fucks, etc.We were there for 3 days 2 nights. Its my first time coming during Songkran and i am really unprepared. I brought 2 pairs of jeans, 3 underwears, pyjamas , some t-shirt, 1 pair of shoe and 3 socks. I ran out of pants after the first day! Had to shop for some cheap shorts, apparently, they are cheap and thin enough that my bulge (with definition) is clearly visible when i am wet. Managed to attract some stares in silom area. We plan to go to dj station on night one and night 2 but outside is so much fun. We joined the crowns to spray waters (even cold water) to everyone. We are so wet, crazy and tired for dj station. Woke up late on the 2 day, we plan to go to Babylon and Chakran but guess what, my RN got doesnt want to be left alone. She start making faces, so we decided to cancel the whole plan and just go for a massage. No babylon no chakran means no touch touch /sex. We went to a gay massage parlour....once there, i spotted this very cute and tall thai. I go str8 to the counter and request for his service. Although no intercourse, it was still a nice body to body massage as i can feel his smooth skin all over me and i was hard all the time. His is cut..which is suprising for a thai. I take the opportunity to play a lil bit with his cock. He offered a happy ending with an extra 1000baht but i decline reluctantly. Overall, a very nice massage.
This time around in bkk, i am still not sure whats my plan as i will be going over with another colleague of mine.

Tua Pui Kia (fat boy)

Just came back from lunch....i screw up my diet plan again today....i am sick of the food nearby my office so decided to drive to The Curve to have my lunch. Finally i tried the waroeng penyet. I love indonesian food so decided to screw the diet and ordered 1 chicken rice and a gado gado...both dissapointing.....at the same time, IKEA is just a bridge away and i love the karipap, so decided to further screw it up by eating one karipap. I told myself thats it and i started walking back to the car and i came across Cupcakes Chic. I knew the fancy cupcakes is rather new in malaysia (i only noticed the craze few months ago) and i love cakes, AND there is not fancy cupcakes nearby where i am staying...so, since i screwed up all the plan today...one more cupcake wont make much of a difference....i bought the vanilla frosting cupcake and it is worth screwing up the diet today. The cupcake is awesome....

My dinner tonight will be only quacker oat..JP has promised to keep me under control tonight in pasar malam...

Facebook

Finally created my facebook account and fuck...its kind of addictive....i spend the whole morning browsing people profile. ...the whole morning..most of the time i can say, is spend trying to find out whether some friend of mine is gay or not. They are obviously gay but have not open up to me although i have gave them indication that "You are not alone". I busted 2 of them :p....the fact that they have too many pretty boys and muscle mary's profile certainly makes them gay.

Hottest Jason

I gave up on any guys named Jason for a long time. I never came across a good looking Jason before. This is how i describe the 3 Jason i known. I dont mean to be funny or mean but i actually picture them as these in my mind

Jason NCG- Mushroom face, button mushroom to be exact

Jason T - Pork Chop

Jason something - Pork Chop Combo

Jason Voorhess - Freak!

Finally, i came across the best looking Jason . Anyone noticed how cute and sexy Jason Lai is???.( i heard he is not gay :((( ) He is the instructor for steps, hi low and aerobic for few fitness centre. Damn, i always thought that any guys associated with advanced steps is certainly gay. Aside from his good looks and his super sexy voice, his steps is hot. I love it when he does it with his hand up in the air. He has a sexy armpit and arm. Too bad he is not teaching advance or intermediate steps in California. Usually, he usually appear to replace any other steps instructor if they cant make it.

Blogging

Hi there, have you not heard that most bloggers are all a bunch of lonely people. Some gave up on relationships (friends, spouses, companion), some just want attention, some of them just dont have someone to listen to. I am all of the above. Putting JP aside, i am actually quite lonely in person. I keep a lot to myself a lot recently. Wow, i actually sounded like a serial rapist in the making.

See, lots of my straight friends cut ties with me after knowing i am gay, which actually hurts a lot because i knew them for years and we used to do lots of things together. AT which is the only gay friend i trust, kind of betrayed me by kicking me out of my own closet. (please read the previous post for more detail). I have lots of Hi-Bye friends in the gym which i am not interested to hangout with (i cant stand their 'fabolous'ness) . Which leaves me with only JP and my family.

How can i tell JP that i am actually attracted to Julian (Mr ChinaMan Secretary) or that i end up getting a blowjob in Cititel. I just need a place to vent. When i came across Sgboy's blog by accident, which is a very interesting blog. All he did is just let it all out in his post. I think to myself, i can do the same too. If i am so excited to share/vent , just do it online. Just imagine letting it all out to everyone randomly, except that, i do not need to reveal who am I.

So, anonymous, if you reading this, here is the elaborated version of my reply on your comment.

Plateau

Dear Body Fat,

Fuck you!!!!Fuck You!!Fuck off!!! Clingy bastards!

Leave me alone.

Yours sincerely,
Fattybum
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Yes, Yes, thats my inner voice.
I am still depressed now after taking my total body analysis in the gym just now. I wasnt expecting the results. Its like getting HIV positive result. The results shows an increase of 0.2kg in my fat and everything remains the same. For once, i am fucking consistence.

I been struggling to lose another 8kg by cutting down on my food, exercise 4 times weekly and using my supposedly secret weapon (the Hydroxycut). When i cut down total on rice and meat, my muscle mass will drop. These extra pounds is really bothering me as i do not get that much attention in California Fitness(bodyfat 23%) compared to my time in fitnessfirst (bodyfat 10%).

Plan this week: :Lose 2kg
Breakfast: Roti Canai Flavoured Oats
Lunch :Nasi Lemak Flavoured Oats
Dinner: KFC Flavoured Oats

How nice if i can have those options. Anyways, time to get more serious. Will be attending gym tomorrow, pumping some irons. Anyone reading this, do share your wise experience on losing weight to me.

Entertaining Chinaman Part 2

Its been a while. I am just not in the mood of writing. The memories with the chinamen last week is still fresh in my mind. My wish to have an fugly customer came true. However, god had to play a cruel trick on me by sending his super twinky, smooth and slim secretary, Julian along with him.He is one the cutest guy i have ever seen. At first glance i knew Julian is gay. When my boss jokingly asked him why his secretary is a guy, Mr Chinaman mentioned that his wife (who is also his HR director) is afraid he is having affair with his secretary. Hence, she hired a guy secretary for him. The whole night in Bintang Palace, i have to force take my eyes off him to avoid any suspicion. Every once is a while, (actually once every 10 secs), i peek at him and then pretended continuing chatting with Mr Chinaman. What a distraction! ONce i am high, all i can think off is if he heads to the toilet, i will just follow him and fuck in the toilet.Since they are one of our biggest customer in China and i will be handling their account in the future, i cant take any action towards Julian as much as i wanted to. Besides, i am attached :D. After drinking, we head to Cititel(what else?) for some happy ending. Mr Chinaman picked the malay girl(dark, slim and cute), my boss picked a vietnamese(damn hot lady). When it comes to my turn, guess what???? I picked a vietnamese babe as well. I just have to release the sexual tension in me towards Julian. I went into the room, changed to my towel. Lan(her name), she came in and the first thing she does is taking off my towel and play with my dick. I froze. She then proceed to kiss me on my lips. I was feeling really uncomfortable at the moment and i didnt response much to the kiss. She proceed to lick my whole body from my ears, to nipples, abs, balls and lastly my feet. That is AWESOME. That really got me high but i wasnt really responsive (i am drunk and gay). She must have think of me as a virgin as i just lie down and moan :p . Since pussy to me is yucky and slimy, i decided not to fuck her, instead asking her just for a handjob and a really good blowjob. She is great and she is deepthroating me. (if she can deepthroat me, she must be good, you know what i mean :p). I came after about 15 mins.The whole night is certainly a good+weird experience for me. I am still not giving up on Julian as i will be heading to Shanghai next month again to meet up with them. maybe next time.

4hrs to 'save' the nation

I am so pissed right now that i dont feel like writing anything now. My stories of the China Man will postpone until the sun comes out. I drove this morning to work, thinking how am i supposed to replan all my monthly budget due to the fuel price hike. The timing for this bomb to drop is definitely bad. Since mynew workplace is in damansara, it need to drive about 40km daily to and fro. From allocating rm200 per month for petrol, now it will cost me RM300. I have to reduce some other areas by 100. I have no choice but to cut down on my entertainment. Fuck i hate the government.
After reading few blogs this morning, it is haphazard decision hastily decided by a low calibre PM cabinet. On TV3 PM prided that the cabinet took 4 long hours to deliberate on the issue! Only 4 hours of deliberation for such an important issue? An important decision of this nature which has a rippling effect on the whole nation show be studied by a competent team of economist, academicians and thinkers for months - not by shallow thinking cabinet ministers in 4 hours!

Fuck fuck fuck Day

Today, the rain, irresponsible motorist and the petrol price hike fucking ruin my day. Due to the rain, there is flash flood everyfuckingwhere, causing jam everyfuckingwhere. Because of that, i missed my step class at Standard Charted. Had to settle for body combat afterthat. After gym, JP asked me to fetch him in The Gardens and there is fucking jam in the federal highway. And the most fucking thing is, the fucking jam is caused by motorist queuing to refill petrol because the price hike at midnight. I just reach my house now. To make things worse, JP bought my favourite maggi goreng and its 1130pm now. I had skipped my dinner and workout in the gym. I thought the plan is working fine, but the maggi goreng is just irresistable. I ate half and pass the remaining to him....The only highlight today is the fact that i met with JP's ex hunky bf in the gym. Really cute and masculine. His sideburn and clean face is just wow. We exchange look a few times. Its just weird if we happen to get attracted to each other.

HI

JUST GOT BACK FROM A VERY VERY LONG NIGHT. DIZZY, SHOCKED, WEIRD, TRAUMA, ALMOST LOSE VIRIGINITY TO VAGINA,SORRY FOR THE CAPS.TOO TIRED TO CHANGE

Entertaining China Men part 1

tonight i am going out for my first entertainment in my new company, WS.WS deals a lot with china, taiwan and indonesian. I expect this day will come since entertaining customer will be part of my job in the sales line. I was even asked during my interview whether am i comfortable to entertain china man.(I have no problem sleeping with the good looking ones). China man entertainment as describes by one of my collegues, drink till you drop. Some even prefer spas and massages, where they usually insist on you to join them in the fun. I dont mind the massage but if they asked me to join them (especially when i am drunk) on the 3some or group sex, i am afraid i might grab the wrong thing. I am so fucking nervous now. I cant act and be drunk at the same time. I start talking craps when i am high...Since its my first time meeting those guys, i hope they are a bunch of old,big belly, ugly and smelly bunch of guys. It will at least do me good when my subconcious took over.

Lose some , gain some

Today , its just occurred to me that i am running out of true friends. My interpretation of true friends in simple...someone you trust your life on and someone u can always count on and vice versa. I always thought AT is my true friend (we even auditioned for amazing race asia together as best friends). I found out that i cant trust him anymore when he went and tell some of my straight friends about me being gay. He said he is doing me a favor because they already suspected it anyway and at the same time, so that i wont need to pretend when i am with them. The fact is some of my straight friends (5 males to be exact) are homo hating bastard (i just don't know why, its not even their business) . So, about 5 of my friends who is used to hang out with no longer contact me and just being indifferent when i met them face to face. Even one of them have the fucking guts to tell me on my face, "You are disgusting, and thats it for us". I know this is coming as back in the university, we are the macho macho guy...you know games, drinking, clubbing, flirting. And we constantly talking trash and make fun on gay people. I usually indirectly defended the gays by saying the 'its their life and their choices' type of speech.
Ya, my females friends on the other hands are very understanding and able to solve the mysteries why i am still not dating a girl despite my good looks (hehe). They are so excited when i told them i am dating JP for almost 2 years already. Although i lose some friends who i thought will be my friends for life, i get to know lots of other friends who are accepting me for who i am. Life right now is not to bad after all. Right now, instead of joining my straight friends for clubbing on saturday night, i am now joining my 'sisters' on the ladies nights! A good time to cruise for hot straight guys!